Enriched with Blessing

It is late, and I was up celebrating at a wonderful wedding until late last night. So I will make this brief.

Oh thankfulness. This is the season for gratitude and remembering the many blessings that are bestowed upon us. Especially in America, we are simply blessed beyond belief. And yes, it is relative, I know.

But the fact of the matter is, my fridge is stocked. I have a flat screen TV. I own my car. I have a place to live that is wonderful for my healthy, thriving, happy child. I have an income. I have a full sized bed. I have, I have, I have, I have, I have. I have so much. I am often struck by how deeply blessed I am. And at the same time, I am keenly aware of how my place in life is not where I want it to be. It seems like the mark of many in my age group-being in this in between. Searching, figuring out what is next. What we want, or if we know, how to get it. Our country is just set up differently now then it was back in the olden days. A lot of us are in debt (Ahem, 80 grand deep here...). A lot of us don't know how to get to where we wish we were.

And yet, we are blessed. I know I am. I am richly blessed. Blessed by friends who love. Blessed by a fragmented family who loves. Blessed by a mind that thinks and a heart that loves. Blessed by passions and desires and goals.

It is not just this season that harkens this praise of our thankfulness. Throughout the days of the year, I just look around and am struck anew by this reality. I am sometimes bothered by how I can feel such discontent in some ways, and yet be so clearly blessed.

But the fact of the matter, is that this goes beyond gratitude. In my heart, I just know,  how lucky I am and how unfair this is for the many that don't have the many things I do.

Recently I was on the hunt for a shower curtain for my bathroom. I mean, I was looking online and I went to several stores. At the end of this little search, I had this awareness of how shallow it must be, to be concerned with a shower curtain. How lucky am I to even have this ability to think about shower curtains for bathrooms.

At church this last Sunday, we talked about gratitude. We talked about how there is no small thing to have a heart of gratitude about. There is no small thing to offer thanks to God about.

I feel like saying that I am thankful puts it lightly.

I am thankful. From within my heart, I am thankful.

I am thankful that I can love.
I am thankful I my heart goes out for the marginalized and for those who come from painful places.
I am thankful that I get to see the joy of others.
I am thankful that for whatever reason, my friends love me and keep me around, even though I can be a handful.
I am thankful that my child is a vibrant being filled with clear intelligence, impressive memory, a creative mind, love and insight.
I am thankful for the family Caleb and I have around us who are apart of our village.
I am thankful for worship, which is surely a language of the soul.
I am thankful for the abundance we have. We don't need it. But we have it.
I am thankful for the ability to give to others.
I am thankful for the food we have. For the gas in my car. For the heater that I can turn on right now. For the apartment that we have.
I am thankful that we do not walk alone in this life, but instead we are blessed to have this faithful community who journeys beside us from near and far.
I am thankful for the God of second chances and beyond.
I am thankful for his undeserving Grace.
I am thankful for his love.
I am thankful that we have Jesus, who came to model how to live in love towards others.
I am thankful for pictures, color, street art, any art, creativity.
I am thankful that we are all different as people, and what a beautiful thing that is.
I am thankful.

This isn't about Thanksgiving. Or November. This is about a life enriched in so many ways. Yet it can be so easy to get lost in the muddle of the every day. Do I have a job I want? No. Do I get to do what I want? No. Do I get to pursue graduate studies in the helping profession? No. Can I move and go where I want? No. There are a lot of things that muddle me down in the every day and in different moments. But the fact remains that all I have to do is look around and see the myriad of ways where I am deeply enriched in blessing that I surely do not deserve.